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Name: Mary
Country: United States
State: California
Metro: Los Angeles
Gender: Female
Interests: Ministry, Music (violin intensive), Theater, Fireworks (BLOW IT UP! THE LOUDER THE BETTER!!!), Orphans, Running, and learning how to overcome Fashion Deficit Disorder. I love dogs, kids, music, goals, good food, friends, travel, my church, classic literature, comments on my blogs and Disneyland. I like to sit and listen to my heroes - my dad, my pastors, Dallas Willard, Bob Becker. I'm afraid I leave comments on MySpace like it's going out of style - even though I don't like MySpace and am just plain old addicted to it.
Expertise: Hmmm - well, I'm at school to become an expert in music, but we never really stop learning. NOOOO, Precious, we never do!
Occupation: Student
Industry: Art
Message: message me
Member Since:
2/7/2005
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| Chaos in the studio . . .
Oh, I forgot to mention that I've been having some issues in my studio.
I returned from Colorado to find that the washers in both the sink and
bathtub hot water faucets had broken and the water had been running
full force for a good week, if not longer. I'm afraid that a lot of
things were ruined by mold, including all of my textbooks and notes
from my music history classes, and the entire bathroom had to be
renovated. Several of you have asked me how that situation is going and
I can gladly say that it is finally getting back to normal around my
place. I'm grateful that I had a dress bag from being in UCO or all of
my formal dresses would have been ruined at best. As it was, I had to
throw out my old violin case cover, my notes, a few clothes and other
books and I couldn't sleep in my own home for three days. Thank you to
all of you who offered to help me and provided a place to stay for me
and my cat during the interim repairs. Without you, I would have been
sick and homeless all over again. | | |
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Changes . . .
I know that I've been sadly remiss in journaling the events of my life
- mostly because I've been too unstable physically to have anything
good to say. Plus I lost my internet bill and was kicked offline again.
There! The truth of my lack of responsible behavior comes out. I'm so
glad that I got that out of the way.
In
effort to move forward with my life, I've made several drastic
decisions in the last few weeks. Those of you who know my indecisive
nature will also know that these decisions may swing right back around
again, but as of right now I'm pretty stoked about the new plan of
action - to stop pursuing violin performance.
Now, before shoes
and tomatoes are thrown let me make it extremely clear that I'm not
giving up the violin. I will keep playing, and I will keep moving
forward as much as possible in my career as a musician. However, I
don't like the person that I have become in pursuit of this goal. I'm
angry, bitter, jealous of my friends, unhappy and frustrated. It's
become something that I don't enjoy, don't love, and don't have any
excitement or desire to pursue. It takes all of my effort to drag
myself in the practice room and work for a half an hour, all the while
thinking how much I hate it and how my life is on hold until I get it
together.
What has been a desire of mine for several years now is
to pursue a masters and doctorate degree in musicology, so that I can
teach music history in a University. The more I thought about it, the
more I realized that no matter what I do, I'm always going to want to
have those degrees and that career anyway, and I am wasting my time
being frustrated about something when I could move forward now in my
life goals. I also figured it was about time to be justified in scaring
off first dates by going on and on about the new Indie film about Farinelli (he didn't call back for a second date, and in retrospect I can see why).
The
day that I made this decision, my entire perspective on my present
situation changed. I wanted to practice - simply because I love to
play, not because I'm striving for something. I started reading my
textbook on music history and began thinking of topics that may be good
for a dissertation. I also started research for a paper about French
music which was inspired by a comment from my violin teacher in
Colorado, and have spent a few days at the APU library. It's official -
I'm now on the road to being a crazy music history professor with
frizzy red hair and glasses.
Anyway, that's the biggest news at the
moment. There are other changes in the works too, but I dont feel like
writing about them at the moment. I'm currently looking for another job
and continuing to get my strength back after having mono. I'm starting
to feel like a normal person again, but I still need at least 10 hours
of sleep a day to feel anywhere close to being human. I love it when I
start crying like a baby at work simply because I'm so tired. I have a
great understanding for children right now.
Miss everyone and hopefully we can hang out soon. Current mood: geeky | | |
| For those of you who haven't seen this on Sc0tlas' blog . . . I think this one's appropriate considering my past profession in children's photography. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8MU8AuoZuto I know mom and dad will like it! :) | | |
| I'm here at Coffee Bean and I have three minutes left for the internet that I paid for. Life after college is awesome. God provides for all our needs. I have been depressed and unmotivated as far as music is concerned, but I've made my decision. I've worked too hard to lose everything that I've put into it. I have the itch to travel. I'm managing Coffee Bean. My cat is weird. There's my life in a nutshell. Love you all! Bye.
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| I know you're all holding your breath . . .
Just WAITING for my post? Actually, I've come to realize that nobody really cares whether I post or not . . . except my faithful stalkers in Montana. So, in honor of those few (and those who actually still might be interested), here's what I've been up to since I left y'alls last!
I arrived in California with a much delayed flight due to a bomb/terrorist threat or something of the sort on my connecting flight from Portland. The scenario was not happy, with quite a few security and airport police trying to whisper as casually as they could something about something in the baggage claim, the announcement that the flight was cancelled, and me having to fly with an ear infection back to Seattle (when I had just flown from Spokane) and then down to LA. The rest of the week was happy however, and I was able to settle into my new apartment in Alhambra, find the sweetest kitty ever at the Baldwin Park Animal Shelter, and receive a promise of a renewal of my work situation at Whole Foods.
Since then, things crashed just a bit - my cat was sick, my car broke down, I lost my job at Whole Foods (They didn't have a "place" for me) and I got sick with a nasty head cold. However, a new job is in the works (as of tomorrow), Kringle is feeling a lot better and Mary's nose has stopped running profusely and issuing projectile snot when she least expects it.
The best part has been being able to reconnect with friends and church family here in LA. I will be playing with the Golden State Pops Orchestra next week and am also excited to start meeting with Priscilla, a wonderful woman from my church for some one-on-one time before the services on Sunday morning. Since I'm still commited to Lake Avenue's services twice a month, it will be a bi-monthly thing, but I'm excited for my new start and the possibilties of establishing a "mom" mentor from my church.
I'm still researching Master's programs, and will be meeting with Bob later this week to find out his perspectives on things. That will be good.
Things are quite lonely living alone. I am grateful for Kringle - he keeps my head on straight most of the time. That being said, I need a lot of phone calls and visits, since I don't have a computer anymore. Yeah . . . call me sometime! Love! | | |
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